if I were there..that's gonna make it

I thought if I were different, you will look at me but the answer is NO. You do ever knocked my heart back even I'm willing to do anything to be granted for that. Oh God, is this what you trying fool me around this kind of thing. Verily, I can't stand it anymore since I knew well that I was not good at this kind of thing. I must seek YOUR help and moreover, I believes in YOU that someday, you'll bring it on the best for me....noted... lets bygone be bygone...(methaphoricsm)